Smile.
Think about all the good things and take the bad as the good as well. For example, by quitting role playing, I have become irrelevant to my foreign internet friends. They don’t take the initiative to talk to me anymore and neither do I. Probably, because without role playing we have nothing to talk about. It would be one mundane conversation after another. Oh, don’t get me wrong. For the first couple of days and weeks, I got messages from them and I messaged them. (Minus Katie because I’m sure she would never forgive me for abandoning her characters, twice.) But that was it. I even tried staying in touch with my ex-girl friend but that didn’t last long either. It’s not because I still hate her. (Believe me, I’ve been over what had happened.) But probably because we have nothing more in common. She’s gotten interested in other stuffs and I’m still interested in the same stuff.
Like I had gotten addicted to xxxHolic again. I even tried downloading and re-watching all the Doctor Who episodes. (Even got my niece hooked to it but still not as big a fan as CJ is.) Then there’s me trying to download 2 Broke Girls Season 2, The Big Bang Theory Season 1 and another anime, Moyashimon. Frustrating, really. Getting addicted to all these things just when school is about to resume. Well, I have at least 3 weeks left but from downloading to watching, I’d have to continue everything during school days. (Hmm. Now, that I think about it then I’d have all these things to calm me down during stressing periods.)
Oh, wait. Where am I getting at again? Ahh, yes. Losing foreign internet friends. Not really, losing them just not keeping in touch? I still randomly tweet Micaela and I still have Olivia, Micaela and William (I have never asked her real name. I mean even though we were close when I still had the Spencer account. I just don’t know?) added on my personal Facebook. But we don’t talk that much anymore? It’s kind of like what I said from my previous entry, when I see their names, I just remember and smile at the memory.
Nowadays, I try to be happy at the most little things. Getting a hug or a kiss from my nieces, my dad being around a lot more, my mom talking to me about really intimate stuffs about her family or even just my brothers jesting around. I smile and laugh and think positively. Especially with the Fall Out Boy coming here thing. I try to think positively at that. (I’m still broke and I can only buy the ticket for General Admission but I’ve learned from Smash Project and besides, this is Fall Out Boy we’re talking about so I want the VIP ticket.) I even have my oldest niece thinking about me being in the concert at the VIP section. (She added me getting picked out by Pete from the crowd and being brought to the stage to sing with them. I’m sucky at singing but hey! It was still a nice thought. :”>) And it’s nice to have these things to smile at. No matter how simple or small it is, it’s nice to have it. Big things need little things, first.
